nobody really reads, so I write whatever I'd like to.
I am just spending another day online as a broke, depressed, paranoid, and confused college student. I am disappointed in myself. When I was younger, my father told me not to get caught in boys. Here I am. I was disobedient and I wish that I wasn't. I guess God has tried to teach my lesson a couple of times. Don't allow yourself to have feelings for anyone that says they are not ready for a relationship. There are no words that can describe me, but one: ignorant. I thought he would soon say that he had feelings for me. I thought that I could change him. No woman can force a man into submission, and if she does it is not in her best interest. I tried, for some time, to convince him to be this beautiful convincing man with amazing words that could turn into sonnets. A facade. That wasn't him or who he wanted to be. Here we are together at dinner now. I told him before we came inside that I am not hungry. How could anyone eat on such a stomach? He has tried